tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-77482018051309273032024-03-20T10:48:54.624+01:00alphagedanke.es ist wohl liebe und schmerz.anna alphahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08546506321822494361noreply@blogger.comBlogger132125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7748201805130927303.post-62802821819203716752013-06-04T01:06:00.001+02:002013-06-04T01:19:37.138+02:00dieses unsichtbare schild.als ob es über meinem kopf schwebt.<br />
als ob es auf meiner stirn steht.<br />
als ob es um meinem hals liegt.<br />
<br />
wie eine große wolke<br />
aus stinkendem gas.<br />
mit einem dicken marker<br />
wasserunslöslich.<br />
mit einer kette.<br />
aus schwerem metall.<br />
<br />
die rauchigen buchstaben formen das wort.<br />
die dicken striche aus tinte kreieren den ausdruck.<br />
die einzelnen glieder bilden den sinn.<br />
<br />
dreck oder prinzessin<br />
schlampe oder elfe<br />
gut oder böse<br />
<br />
ich weiß es nicht,<br />
der spiegel mag es nicht verraten. <br />
<br />anna alphahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08546506321822494361noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7748201805130927303.post-10379187765666483752013-06-02T11:16:00.002+02:002013-06-04T01:19:54.122+02:00unloveable.<iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/olN4tsBmTHU?rel=0" width="420"></iframe><br />
<br />
Oh ... <br />
I know I'm unloveable <br />
You don't have to tell me <br />
I don't have much in my life <br />
But take it - it's yours <br />
I don't have much in my life <br />
But take it - it's yours <br />
Oh ... <br />
<br />
I know I'm unloveable <br />
You don't have to tell me <br />
Oh, message received <br />
Loud and clear <br />
Loud and clear <br />
I don't have much in my life <br />
But take it - it's yours <br />
<br />
<br />
I know I'm unloveable <br />
You don't have to tell me <br />
For message received <br />
Loud and clear <br />
Loud and clear <br />
Message received <br />
I don't have much in my life <br />
But take it - it's yours <br />
<br />
<br />
I wear Black on the outside <br />
'Cause Black is how I feel on the inside <br />
I wear Black on the outside <br />
'Cause Black is how I feel on the inside <br />
<br />
<br />
And if I seem a little strange <br />
Well, that's because I am <br />
If I seem a little strange <br />
That's because I am <br />
<br />
<br />
But I know that you would like me <br />
If only you could see me <br />
If only you could meet me <br />
<br />
<br />
Oh ... <br />
I don't have much in my life <br />
But take it - it's yours <br />
I don't have much in my life <br />
But take it - it's yours <br />
Mmm ... <br />
Oh ... anna alphahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08546506321822494361noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7748201805130927303.post-53634647347639475092013-06-02T11:01:00.001+02:002013-06-04T01:20:11.027+02:00this cig.it's lit.<br />
glowing.<br />
smoldering.<br />
there.<br />
red.<br />
and orange.<br />
and baking.anna alphahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08546506321822494361noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7748201805130927303.post-2818956731626294492013-06-02T10:55:00.000+02:002013-06-04T01:20:33.763+02:00sonntagmorgens.die beats der nacht noch im kopf.<br />
dröhnend.<br />
laut.<br />
<br />
und ohne halt.anna alphahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08546506321822494361noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7748201805130927303.post-81635713929221557412013-06-02T10:40:00.002+02:002013-06-04T01:20:58.405+02:00vom glücklich sein.nur kurz hält es an.<br />
wie ein sturm überkommt es mich.<br />
nur kurz hält es an.<br />
gedanken kreisen um sich.<br />
nur kurz hält es an.<br />
das warme gefühl.<br />
die wohlige stimmung.<br />
alles andere als kühl.<br />
sie baut sich auf - die erwartung.<br />
aber nur kurz hält es an.<br />
und wie es begann<br />
so entschwann<br />
es mir.anna alphahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08546506321822494361noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7748201805130927303.post-76852023389478913682013-02-13T11:24:00.001+01:002013-06-04T01:21:11.638+02:00sylvia.I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead;<br />
I lift my lids and all is born again.<br />
(I think I made you up inside my head.)<br />
<br />
The stars go waltzing out in blue and red,<br />
And arbitrary blackness gallops in:<br />
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.<br />
<br />
I dreamed that you bewitched me into bed<br />
And sung me moon-struck, kissed me quite insane.<br />
(I think I made you up inside my head.)<br />
<br />
God topples from the sky, hell’s fires fade:<br />
Exit seraphim and Satan’s men:<br />
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.<br />
<br />
I fancied you’d return the way you said,<br />
But I grow old and I forget your name.<br />
(I think I made you up inside my head.)<br />
<br />
I should have loved a thunderbird instead;<br />
At least when spring comes they roar back again.<br />
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.<br />
(I think I made you up inside my head.)<br />
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Mad girls love song. Sylvia Plath</div>
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anna alphahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08546506321822494361noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7748201805130927303.post-25502392100432646852012-10-29T22:54:00.000+01:002013-06-04T01:21:21.967+02:00trashbin.... and i wasted<br />
<br />
- time<br />
- money<br />
- feelings like love and hate<br />
- my body and the ones from others<br />
<br />
so... i wasted like a lot.<br />
<br />
could u pick up the bin and throw it all away?<br />
<br />
please.anna alphahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08546506321822494361noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7748201805130927303.post-42367475186828916712012-03-14T17:50:00.000+01:002012-03-14T17:51:58.688+01:00rainbow girl.<iframe src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/c-LzLTjMcek?rel=0" allowfullscreen="" width="560" frameborder="0" height="315"></iframe><br /><br />monday she feels sad and blue<br />so she tries to find the same colour shoe<br />tuesday is fake so she stays in her bed<br />with a lipstick she paints a smile big and red<br /><br />rainbow girl rainbow girl<br /><br />wedensday she feels lack of hope<br />so she washes away depression with soap<br />thursday she feels down and mellow<br />this dress shows her chest it's so fine and it's yellow<br />friday it's the peak of the week<br />in the mirror rehearsals of being discreet<br />saturday she's dancing around with grace<br />sunday black mascara is running down her face<br /><br />rainbow girl rainbow girl<br />every day of the week rainbow girl<br />rainbow girl rainbow girl<br />everyday she is so weak rainbow girl<br />rainbow girl rainbow girl<br />it rains with tears on her cheek rainbow girl<br />rainbow girl rainbow girl<div style="overflow: hidden; color: rgb(0, 0, 0); background-color: transparent; text-align: left; text-decoration: none; border: medium none;"><br /></div><br /><br /><a href="http://www.blogger.com/post-create.g?blogID=7748201805130927303#" name="ToggleMore"></a>anna alphahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08546506321822494361noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7748201805130927303.post-19520977825400508902012-02-04T18:56:00.000+01:002012-02-04T18:57:20.137+01:00to the backbone.<iframe src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/vwrvRmfTRFo?rel=0" allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="315" width="560"></iframe>anna alphahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08546506321822494361noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7748201805130927303.post-48514061221663270182012-02-04T08:35:00.002+01:002012-02-04T08:39:11.645+01:00maskenparade.zieh sie auf.<br />nimm sie ab.<br /><br />fang an zu spielen.<br />auf andere zu zielen.<br /><br />zieh sie auf.<br />nimm sie ab.<br /><br />schau, dass niemand dich sieht.<br />sich mit ihr verzieht.<br /><br />zieh sie auf.<br />nimm sie ab.<br /><br />nimm dir, nimm dir viel.<br />es ist dein spiel.<br /><br /><br /><br /><a href="http://www.blogger.com/post-create.g?blogID=7748201805130927303#" name="ToggleMore"></a>anna alphahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08546506321822494361noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7748201805130927303.post-48146196717595726762012-01-11T23:01:00.000+01:002013-06-02T10:56:57.385+02:00wie edith.<h6 class="uiStreamMessage" ft="{"type":1}" style="font-weight: normal;">
<span class="messageBody" ft="{"type":3}" style="font-size: small;">und sie sang es. ihr singen wurde zum schreien. ihr schreien zum weinen. </span></h6>
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<span class="messageBody" ft="{"type":3}" style="font-size: small;">ihre tränen verzauberten den mund. und sie lächelte. strahlte.</span></h6>
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<span class="messageBody" ft="{"type":3}" style="font-size: small;">summte "non, rien de rien..."</span></h6>
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<a href="http://www.blogger.com/post-create.g?blogID=7748201805130927303#" name="ToggleMore"></a>anna alphahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08546506321822494361noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7748201805130927303.post-25516024550557499972012-01-10T18:33:00.001+01:002012-01-10T18:38:02.724+01:00schön und unverbindlich.<iframe src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/A4gBzUwo6Iw?rel=0" allowfullscreen="" width="420" frameborder="0" height="315"></iframe><br /><br />there’s a look on your face i would like to knock out<br />see the sin in your grin and the shape of your mouth<br />all i want is to see you in terrible pain<br />though we won’t ever meet i remember your name<br /><br /> can’t believe you were once just like anyone else<br /> then you grew and became like the devil himself<br /> pray to god i can think of a nice thing to say<br /> but i don’t think i can so fuck you anyway<br /><br />you are scum, you are scum and I hope that you know<br />that the cracks in your smile are beginning to show<br />now the world needs to see that it’s time you should go<br />there’s no light in your eyes and your brain is too slow<br /><br /> can’t believe you were once just like anyone else<br /> then you grew and became like the devil himself<br /> pray to god i can think of a nice thing to say<br /> but i don’t think i can, so fuck you anyway<br /><br />bet you sleep like a child with your thumb in your mouth<br />i could creep up beside put a gun in your mouth<br />makes me sick when i hear all the shit that you say<br />so much crap coming out it must take you all day<br />there’s a space kept in hell with your name on the seat<br />with a spike in the chair just to make it complete<br />when you look at yourself do you see what i see<br />if you do why the fuck are you looking at me<br /><br /> why the fuck why the fuck are you looking at me<br /><br />there’s a time for us all and i think yours has been<br />can you please hurry up 'cos i find you obscene<br />we can’t wait for the day that you’re never around<br />when that face isn’t here and you rot underground<br /><br /> can’t believe you were once just like anyone else<br /> then you grew and became like the devil himself<br /> pray to god i can think of a nice thing to say<br /> but I don’t think i can so fuck you anyway<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><a href="http://www.blogger.com/post-create.g?blogID=7748201805130927303#" name="ToggleMore"></a>anna alphahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08546506321822494361noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7748201805130927303.post-35836806515315717962012-01-01T23:58:00.001+01:002012-01-02T00:03:59.609+01:00"hör auf zu töten, was nicht dir gehört." n.v.d.<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhOlXvimBncRHE4jB-2_MiByMSXSzRP92ZVqkjwZdRvRx0nHdlNGYZKRhKzfXUksLVZX26HYUEiOpaBRxLVTVigRzK0cj-RkMLcv0bQbpsw3vqp5aKUAU21UoxF6bfnQ0N6lx6OrUse6ZPU/s1600/Foto.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 298px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhOlXvimBncRHE4jB-2_MiByMSXSzRP92ZVqkjwZdRvRx0nHdlNGYZKRhKzfXUksLVZX26HYUEiOpaBRxLVTVigRzK0cj-RkMLcv0bQbpsw3vqp5aKUAU21UoxF6bfnQ0N6lx6OrUse6ZPU/s320/Foto.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5692803105262066978" border="0" /></a>anna alphahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08546506321822494361noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7748201805130927303.post-8602484642149849392012-01-01T23:52:00.003+01:002012-01-11T13:05:18.358+01:00autsch.es zieht und ruckelt und reißt an mir<br />es schneidet und zerfetzt mich<br />wie ein wildes tier.<br /><br />es blutet<br />dunkel und rot<br />gefährlich wie tod<br /><br />nicht das herz, nein, ließ ich mir rauben.<br />nur mein stolz musste dran glauben.anna alphahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08546506321822494361noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7748201805130927303.post-59312651146373219002012-01-01T23:42:00.001+01:002012-01-01T23:42:18.151+01:00erzähl mir eine geschichte, nur noch eine.erzähl‘ mir von könig,<br />königin und rittern<br />berichte von kämpfen -<br />bring mich zum zittern!<br /><br />erzähl‘ mir von prinz,<br />prinzessin und drachen<br />sag lustiges -<br />bring mich zum lachen!<br /><br />erzähl‘ mir von schlacht.<br />tod und verderben<br />vergiss ja keinen -<br />bring mich zum weinen!<br /><br />erzähl‘ mir von blumen,<br />tieren und bäumen -<br />bring mich zum träumen!<br /><br />erzähl‘ mir vom leben<br />komm zu mir -<br />bring mich zum schweben.anna alphahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08546506321822494361noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7748201805130927303.post-88742500878043631872012-01-01T23:36:00.001+01:002012-01-01T23:40:24.223+01:00story of my life.<iframe src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/fW8q-Pd3oGs?rel=0" allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="315" width="420"></iframe><br /><br />they say i'm wasting time, they said that i'm no good<br />cause i'm a love my life, not doing what i should<br />call me poison ivy cause i'm far from good<br />pretty from afar like a dark star<br /><br />they say i'm dangerous, they think i'm really bad,<br />i'm just making up for what i never had<br />go out every night whenever i feel sad<br />all this drive i love got me crazy like a truck<br /><br /> i wear my red lipstick, got my make up on<br />stumble into trouble, sighing with a sad song<br />they all got girlfriends, but i'm the one that they want<br />it's america with the blue mascara on<br /><br /> i spent my whole life driving in cars with boys,<br />riding 'round town drinking in the white noise.anna alphahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08546506321822494361noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7748201805130927303.post-29925164762343845882012-01-01T23:32:00.003+01:002012-01-02T17:16:35.819+01:00wirr und traurig und wütend und abgefahren.um kreise kreisen.<br />immer wieder<br />versuchen wände einzureißen.<br /><br />raus und rein<br />rein und raus<br />micky maus<br /><br />rauf und runter<br />runter und rauf<br />sauf den dreck, sauf<br /><br />im rechteck springen<br />immer wieder<br />sich selbst bezwingen.anna alphahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08546506321822494361noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7748201805130927303.post-3404460476314218242011-12-14T14:17:00.000+01:002011-12-14T14:18:32.947+01:00your darkness is shining...<iframe src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/FkqPYkiVuhI?rel=0" allowfullscreen="" width="420" frameborder="0" height="315"></iframe><br /><br />my darkness is shining!<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><a href="http://www.blogger.com/post-create.g?blogID=7748201805130927303#" name="ToggleMore"></a>anna alphahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08546506321822494361noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7748201805130927303.post-74443884673625361212011-12-11T12:35:00.001+01:002011-12-11T12:35:59.208+01:00don't you?<iframe src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/JJ6Q1ALmxcY?rel=0" allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="315" width="420"></iframe>anna alphahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08546506321822494361noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7748201805130927303.post-61460862545566777892011-12-09T19:12:00.002+01:002011-12-10T12:28:28.246+01:00deine freundin, die moral.deine freundin, die moral -<br />ist da alles noch normal?<br />ist sie bei dir, tag für tag?<br />oder zweifelst du wenn ich so frag?<br />hälst du an ihr fest?<br />und sagst du ihr "ich liebe dich" wenn du morgens das haus verlässt?<br />ist sie wirklich das oberste für dich?<br />das frag ich mich.<br />gez: die unvernunft.anna alphahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08546506321822494361noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7748201805130927303.post-67404690073930880172011-12-07T12:41:00.003+01:002011-12-07T12:43:30.680+01:00"dass ich nicht in den himmel komme, weiß ich schon lange ...... deswegen kann man jetzt ohne ende unfug machen."<br /><br /><a href="http://www.blogger.com/post-create.g?blogID=7748201805130927303#" name="ToggleMore"></a>anna alphahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08546506321822494361noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7748201805130927303.post-16174272782880405042011-11-28T23:43:00.001+01:002011-11-28T23:43:44.070+01:00sober.maybe it's the reality<br />being the fatality.anna alphahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08546506321822494361noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7748201805130927303.post-88656806655600633452011-11-19T19:06:00.001+01:002011-11-19T19:06:54.697+01:00bestandsaufnahme.ein leben voller möglichkeiten.<br />voller reichtum.<br />voller allem.<br /><br />das glück in den müll.<br />die sicherheit im sack.<br />die liebe vergessen.<br />den gott gekauft.<br /><br />das ist wohl heute.<br />das ist wohl unsere zeit.<br />das ist wohl jetzt.anna alphahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08546506321822494361noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7748201805130927303.post-28179637244548007652011-11-19T19:02:00.000+01:002011-11-19T19:03:38.476+01:00the big black one.<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjKAQjfJu2crqsPeljrJjRRnjl4YyVFyDziOdMw1t4jdhbq8iqsM1t5OeploGxTGYUUW37i08Lub_GmUwNlLTVTQEA7Vxtie5QEA-nD2yFys_0C2uLggA4iVCblHKeFWUHwz8Hr1-cE9pHq/s1600/schwarzesloch.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 229px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjKAQjfJu2crqsPeljrJjRRnjl4YyVFyDziOdMw1t4jdhbq8iqsM1t5OeploGxTGYUUW37i08Lub_GmUwNlLTVTQEA7Vxtie5QEA-nD2yFys_0C2uLggA4iVCblHKeFWUHwz8Hr1-cE9pHq/s320/schwarzesloch.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5676769070715405266" border="0" /></a><br /><div style="text-align: center;"> <span class="messageBody" ft="{"type":3}">"im zusammenhang mit dir würde ich doch niemals das wort "herz" verwenden. <br />du weißt doch, was sich bei dir an der stelle befindet."</span><br /></div>anna alphahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08546506321822494361noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7748201805130927303.post-29990354442242627372011-11-19T18:54:00.001+01:002011-11-19T18:55:22.762+01:00baby put on heart shaped sunglasses...<iframe src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/u89_AiQu9BQ?rel=0" allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="315" width="560"></iframe><br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;">cause we gonna take a ride.<br /></div>anna alphahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08546506321822494361noreply@blogger.com0